Stop looking in the mirror and HATING your body. It’s YOURS. Seriously. There’s such a stigma about be too “fat” or being too “skinny”. You feel judged. But people see the beauty you carry on the inside. It sounds cliche, but no one really notices the things you do. They don’t see that one extra roll that you think is the only thing that shows on your body. You are TRULY beautiful.
YOU ARE SO BEAUTIFUL.
It doesn’t matter if you’re big or small // tall or short // dark or light.
I’ve struggled with this my ENTIRE life. I hated my body so much and still struggle with it. After doing this shoot, I never felt more comfortable in my skin than that moment. I knew I had more junk hanging out of my trunk than the other girls. But they didn’t see it. They saw me. I didn’t feel disgusting. I felt normal. I may be too harsh on myself any other time, but I loved doing this shoot. After I had my firstborn, I knew I had some work to do. I lost 50 lbs on top of everything I lost after delivery and with breastfeeding. It took me months of vigorous exercise and strict dieting. Shortly after, I found out I was pregnant with twins. What an anomaly! I grew twice the size over again and was left with extra skin, so much so that it has a concave shape on either side. My stretch marks mark the place where my two babies grew at the same time. It blows my mind. I’m trying to remind myself that I can change it if I want to, but I don’t have to for society’s standards or to think that my friends will like me more if I was thinner. No one even cares.
Hips that widen and feel uncomfortable Stomachs that never stop itching no matter how much lotion you put on Hardly any marks to show the wonderful new life I created The morning sickness that made me want to tumble to a soft bed Cravings everyday, non stop water intake and the many bathroom trips In awe of watching my body change to accommodate a new life I would do it all over again and love my body even more
Since high school I’ve always struggled with my self image. I wanted so badly to have perfect hips or the flattest stomach like the other girls. Since then it’s been a long rocky road of having days where I felt like a goddess and then the days I felt like the a chunky slob. But lucky for me I’m surrounded my such a positive group of girls who bring me up when I’m down and remind me how beautiful I am. I may not have the flattest stomach or curves in all the right places but everyday I’m loving it more and more!
For me, I’ve always struggled with myself. It was always a love/hate relationship. I never thought it was good enough. To this day I still have my ups and downs with it. But now that I have a daughter, I want to teach her to love herself no matter what. I never want her to feel the way I do at times. It will be tough. I will always be there for her to run to when she feels down. I look at these photos of her and I and all the insecurities melt away. Doing this shoot with Sami, Amanda, Alex and Ashley was absolutely amazing. It as such a joy and really helped me love myself more, especially with this new post partum body I earned from having a beautiful daughter. That is so rewarding, my heart and soul is filled with gold.
Body image. It’s a scary word for some people. I haven’t struggled as much as I feel others may have, but I’ve had my fair share of insecurities. Sure, my build is quite petite, but for most of my life I’ve had the shape of a 12 year old boy. Straight as a board, just like my hair, but that’s a story for another day. I say for most of my life because I feel like my hips are starting to pop out, faintly, but they’re there! When I do gain weight, it all goes to my belly, which is great because then people assume I’m pregnant (it was one time, but I’m scarred ok!) All of that to say, I feel like I’m at a good place now. I’ve realized I get to be in control of how I see myself. And when I look in the mirror, I see a badass queen who is ready to take on the world. Life is too short to look back and say things like “I used to be so skinny” or “I wish I was that skinny now.” I’ve learned happiness starts in your mind, when you can start seeing yourself as the queen you truly are, you will love looking in that mirror in the morning. It’s not an easy road, but sooooo worth it. Love Yo’ Self!